Haute Mom Dilemma #7 ~ Finding My Way

Three months ago today my life changed forever. All of the advice and research I have done could not have prepared me for the adventure I was about to embark on. Long gone are the days of being a 30-something married person without children. Here are the days of diapers, coupons, and "who is gonna watch the baby?" Although I love my daughter more than anything in the world, I cannot say this has been easy. I am now questionning all those new moms who are bright-eyed in their skinny jeans who claim being a new mom is all roses. No it isn't - they cheated and hired a nanny. The past months have been like flipping through a deck of cards and never knowing what was going to come up. Along with being a new mom I have dealt with a thyroid cancer scare and the death of a brother-in-law. The worst part of this is that so many of my so called "friends" don't even know because I have lost them as part of the casualties of motherhood. Some of them don't bother to call because they assume I can't go out, they are too wrapped up in their own lives, or they simply don't like my little new party of Kelley plus 1/2. I have some friends that haven't even bothered to ask about Stella in weeks. On the brighter side, I have found out who my true friends are, some I never would have guessed. I have two amazing friends who "don't like kids" that have been with me every step of the way and embraced my baby girl as if she were their own - thank you Heather and Sheila. I have a wonderful new group of fellow mom friends who have been amazing and supportive, more so than I could have dreamed of - thank you Emily, Joanna, and Alyssa. I have the usual support group who just check in on me regularly to see how things are going - thank you Robin, Rikayah, and Hollie. I recently had one friend from college offer her nanny to me so that I can get a break to deal with this problem I have been having lately called the baby blues-thank you Masy. I was blown away! Lastly, Stella has brought me closer to my family and my husband who do their best to make sure I have some "old me" time. My husband just sent my girlfriend and I to a Styx concert! Oh yeah! I am finally starting to feel like this new road is somewhat familiar although there are always bump that happen along the way. The true amazing thing is that this perfect little being has so much power inside of her to help an adult like me see true friends, bring family together and realize what things really matter in life.

Happy three month birthday Stella! I love you!

My bff (a.k.a Love Bug) and I at Styx - thanks to my husband